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Nonhumanphobia is a short novel by Yan-Gyan. This novel aims to satirize and criticize the perceptions of people in Asian societies.
All the Chinese names are written with surname first.
We're inhuman, or non-human?
Story
“ | Sanming, Fujian[Pronunciation guide 1]. A corpse is found on the Qilin[Pronunciation guide 2] Mountain. The victim is a high-school student who is good-rated by her classmates. The victim's classmates said that she was always standing at the side of most classmate so it's hard to imagine there is someone who was willing to murder her. Traces at the eyewitness testimony note the murderer as a young woman around 16... | ” |
Part One
"Here! Ruixun[Pronunciation guide 3]!"
Finally, everyone is here for a leisurely hangout. Ruixun, Ming, and me, Xin[Pronunciation guide 4].
We first know each other via the Internet, after we build the bridge of trust and know the identity and real name of the other party in the real world., we decided to have a meet-up. A hangout like today is really usual for us now.
"I beg your pardon for my delay. My sister fell ill, I should have done my duty as a brother. Old same, I'll order the black tea. Your bills are on me today." Ruixun said. Ruixun has short hair and cute face, and a little girly. You know he is different from other boys as you see he respects girls much more than others around you. We know he has a young sister, Luoyu[Pronunciation guide 5] though we never saw her in person, she only appears in his words.
"Okay, good brother, remember to keep your cute sis away from the murderer." Ming said. Ming, a boy who has an amazing voice and cool face like an idol, is popular among girls. I heard he got great grade in his school.
"God, you mean Zhang Fang[Pronunciation guide 6]'s killer? That's a terrible case." I said.
"You know the victim?" Said Ming.
"Yes. She was welcomed in our class."
"Jesus, that's crazy. Someone you know is killed. Girls like you should be careful."
"Xin, do you think she was a good person?" Ruixun asked me suddenly.
"Everyone likes her... I dunno, I didn't know her so well. What's wrong?"
"Nothing, pardon my curiosity. But I wonder if she did something bad and got killed, does anyone know if?"
"I don't think so... We didn't go to the same school during the middle school, so I don't think I know anything about her middle school, either."
"Okay..."
The waiter spilled the black tea for Ruixun accidentally when he offered us tea.
"Ouch! Hot!" Ruixun made a girlish noise as the black tea was spilled on his hand.
"Sorry! Are you hurt?" Waiter said.
"No - no, I'm fine." Ruixun turned his voice normal.
"Hear what noise you made, sissy." Said Ming.
"Hey, don't say that word..." Said me.
"No, Xin, it's okay." Said Ruixun, he said this with a smile.
His hand is blistering. The waiter brought the ointment then we finally took care of it.
Part Two
"No... Stop right there! You don't have to do this!" The girl said.
"You think that way?" Said another girl.
"Please stop... You have no need to take anyone's life..."
"From the beginning, I've been rejected by the world. By all the... humans. I am INHUMAN."
"Stop it... "
Then death came to the girl.
Part Three
"Saw the news? A new victim." Ming said.
"Bloody hell! Another girl is killed?" I asked Ming.
"No girl, the victim is a boy."
"Maybe an eyewitness, the murderer was to kill all clues?"
"You're trying to figure out what the murderer was up to?" Said Ruixun.
"I'm just curious."
Ming read the newspaper and said "No, he wasn't found to be related to the last victim. But the police did find the same fingerprint as in the last crime scene, so they can confirm the murderer is the same girl."
"Hey, remember the news about the last crime? It said there WAS an eyewitness, but no one told us who they are."
We talked about this case and figured out nothing. We decided to head own homes before it's too late.
I've been guilty because I didn't tell them some important facts.
I went to the same middle school Zhang Fang.
But I couldn't tell anyone, because I have put to death someone.
Now, the police are investigating what happened to Zhang, and I have to cover up what I have done.
Part Four
"She's hanging out with that weirdo..."
"Hehe, maybe a couple."
"I believe she's a weido, too."
Xin started to receive all of these comments from the beginning of middle school because she was the friend of Aihai[Pronunciation guide 7].
She was in the same class with Zhang Fang when she was in middle school, too. Zhang, who always stood with majority, was bullying her and Aihai with the majority. One boy even beat them up.
Finally, Xin stopped to bear this.
One day after then, Aihai stopped to bear it, too.
Part Five
Strange. Ming thought, How did the killer choose their victims? Not gender...
Suddenly he received a call from his mother.
"Hey, mom? What's going on?"
"Are you going home?"
"Sure I am."
"Quickly, you know we have a killer around."
"Okay, I will. By the way, how's Lan doing now?"
"I don't think he is doing good in the Correction Center; you know the headmaster told me he's so adamant there's nothing wrong with him that we need to extend his correction to get a normal kid."
"Sounds bad."
After Ming ended the call, a girl's voice apporched him:
"Is that related to Lan?"
"Oh my- it's you! You came from nowhere, that's scary! Why are you here?"
"I don't wanna head home after the hangout."
"What do you mean?"
At this point, they walked into a deserted alleyway. You can't see anyone around.
"Do you really support your mother for sending your brother Lan there?"
"Yes. I told you he-"
"Don't you know he would get inhumane torment there[Note 1]?!"
"He deserves this! He is the one who's being inhumane because he's ho-"
A stab.
She stabbed him in the stomach, and he fell to the ground.
"You're the same as them!" Said her.
"You... are the killer..."
"Zhang who bullied her with them, and the boy who beat her up... And the other people who hold the same idea with 'em... No, you humans are all the same. Torturing people who are different from you. We're inhuman, or non-human?"
"What the fuck... are you sayin'...."
"Murder! Murder!" Someone came in the allyway so suddenly that she didn't realize what happened and that witness passed by took out the phone and took a photo of her.
At last, she ran away.
Part Six
“ | After Aihai's suicide, I asked a reporter to expose the people who put her to death, to expose bullying in schools and the fact that teachers acquiesce to it. I believed in him so much until I realized that he had decided to give up because of the family background of the perpetrator, and I remembered that Aihai too had been betrayed by her best friend, so I decided not to trust anyone anymore. | ” |
Part Seven
I'm so worried when I was watching the news because they showed the photo of the murderer, and the photo of Ming's corpse.
Then, the doorbell rang.
Are there police? I shuddered and checked the peephole on the door, only to find a girl with face mask at the door.
"Hello? Anyone home?" She spoke.
"Yes." I opened the door.
"Sorry for bother. I am Luoyu, Ruixun's sister. You're Xin, right?"
"You're Luo - God, finally saw you in person."
I asked her to sit down on the sofa and quickly turned off the television. I can't let her see the news.
"I'm sorry for what happened on your brother's missing."
No one has seen Ruixun since that murder.
"It's okay." Covering her left hand, she sat down.
"Do you... need some tea?"
"A black tea... No, I'm not taking off my mask so just forget it."
Her eyes and gaze are very alike with her brother, and her long hair is beautiful, and it looks soft. I like her dress, it's just too cute.
I'm nervous about the questions she'll ask.
She said, "Are you a homophobe?"
"What -"
"I heard something about... Aihai. You know her, right?"
"Yeah..."
"Tell me, you was her friend, and why did you be the betrayer?"
"No, I'm not -"
"The truth is?"
"...Believe me... I'm not a betrayer. I just couln't stand bullying, so I decided to stand on the opposite side of her..."
"...Do you know Lan?"
"...Yeah. Ming's brother who was sent to a 'correctional center' because he's a homosexual."
"How do feel about this?"
"...Terrible. No one should be suffering like that."
"...Good. I'm leaving, thanks for you treatment." It looks like Luoyu decided something deep inside.
She's leaving... okay...
Wait. I finnally realize something.
"Hold on."
"What's wrong?"
"How long will you keep pretent, Ruixun?"
"I don't understand you."
"You can't fool me, Ruixun. I bet the person 'Luoyu' is someone who never exist. From the beginning, you're covering your left hand. Remember a few days ago, you got black tea on your hand. Could you let me see if you have blisters on your hands, please?"
"...No need for it."
She turned around and took off her mask. Under that mask, there is a face that is wandering in my mind, that's Ruixun's face.
"...Ruixun."
He sighed.
My tears came out, and I shout loudly with enthusiasm:
"Why did you commit murder?"
He did not speak.
"I saw the photo on the TV. You're the murderer of Ming, right? Why did you do that?"
"...You're wrong."
"What?"
"The one who never exist is 'Ruixun'."
Seeing my shocked look, she laughed.
"Imma tell you a story, just for the sake of our friendship."
Part Eight
I have fallen in love with Aihai when I was in middle school, and she was in the different school with me.
She was bullied for being open about her sexuality, and so were you, her only friend in the school. You couldn't stand it, and chose to be a "betrayer", siding with the majority, the bullies. "Inhumane", they use this derogatory term for her. At that time, Aihai had no choice but suicide.
Zhang Fang is the same, but according to Aihai, Zhang seems to discriminate against her from the bottom of his heart, and she believes she is righteous.
"No... Stop right there! You don't have to do this!"
"You think that way?"
"Please stop... You have no need to take anyone's life..."
"From the beginning, I've been rejected by the world. By all the... humans. I am INHUMAN."
"Stop it... "
Aihai took her own life.
"Inhuman", the dictionary says it means "Of or pertaining to inhumanity and the indifferently cruel, sadistic or barbaric behavior it brings."
Humans are just weird, demeaning, bullying, dehumanizing when they encounter everything that is different from them. And if you aren't, you can't be one of them.
She didn't do anything inhumane - we don't! We're just... different from them, humans. We're just "non-humans". Lan is also an example of non-human.
I see, they're nonhumanphobia.
I tried to avenge her. After Aihai's suicide, I asked a reporter to expose the people who put her to death, to expose bullying in schools and the fact that teachers acquiesce to it. I believed in him so much until I realized that he had decided to give up because of the family background of the perpetrator, and I remembered that Aihai too had been betrayed by her best friend, so I decided not to trust anyone anymore.
But the world is small, I met you up on the Internet. And I also met Ming the homophobe, who sent his own brother into hell with his mother.
I decide to keep my revenge. I hid my gender and identity and began to meet you two, just to confirm not to kill the wrong people. During this time, I killed Zhang and one of the bullies. I was witnessed in the first crime, but I didn't kill the eyewitness... I kill only my target.
I ensured Ming is one I should kill, but I still talked to him at last. When I realized he was hopeless, I killed him. But I was witnessed again, and I ran away.
And you? I can feel your guilt when you're vocalizing those words. It doesn't mean I trust you, just I can feel it. I hope I'm not wrong.
I know deep down that you humans are all sinful, but I only kill those I want to punish. So don't worry, I won't be mass murdering or anything like that.
Final Part
After hearing her confession, I'm extremely shocked.
"Please let me go. Xin."
"O-okay..."
Though I said so, I kept following her.
And she went to the top of the building. I know here.
Here is where Aihai committed suicide.
And now, Ruixun - I know it's not her real name, but I get used to call her this way - is ready to jump off.
I rushed into her, held her tight and take her backward.
"Let me go!"
It's the first time I saw her cry.
"You finally stopped acting... please, I love you. I've been in love with you from long ago."
"I'm not human..."
"Then what? I can be non-human for you."
She froze, seemingly shocked.
"I'm willing to redeem myself. No matter what I should do. Even it means I have to kill someone. Just let me be your side."
"...What do you want?"
"Maybe..." I'm thinking, what can I do? Oh...
“ | How about keep killing those people who put Aihai to death? | ” |
Japanese ver. (日本語ver.)
Notes
- ↑ In China, there are often so-called "correction centers" or "reform school" that tell parents that they can correct their "problematic" children. These children may be internet addicts, homosexuals, or even just having a disagreement with their parents, and will be tortured until they are completely submissive to their parents. An example is Yuzhang Academy. [1]